September draws near. 4 months to go before the end of the year.
What have I achieved so far? I moved out.
There is this part of me that wants so much more.
I keep wondering when will it be my turn. My turn to feel like I am at peace and satisfied. My turn to see the whitest white of soft snow. My turn to see the northern lights. My turn see raindrops in the form of sakuras. My turn to feel the winds of the ocean on my sun burnt skin as I bury my feet into the white sands of the great big blue ocean.
Some people have it... or have it so close to them that they can actually feel it.
Mine feels so far away.
So when will it be my turn.
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Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Tuesday, 23 August 2011
Friday, 19 August 2011
Being away
I realise I can never be truly happy in KL.
I miss being away.
I miss my winters
and I miss my cheap wine.
I miss breathing out 'smoke' when I don't have a cig in hand.
I miss tucking my hands under my tights
and ducking behind my scarf thats around my neck.
I miss the late night walks something I can't do in KL.
Something no one I know does because we're afraid that someone will splash us with acid or get raped or get mugged.
I want to work and grow in an environment where working on weekends is unheard of. '
I want to have a winter wedding with a big bond fire.
I want my kids to have pink noses and an option about everything!
I miss my life away from KL.
I miss being away.
I miss being away.
I miss my winters
and I miss my cheap wine.
I miss breathing out 'smoke' when I don't have a cig in hand.
I miss tucking my hands under my tights
and ducking behind my scarf thats around my neck.
I miss the late night walks something I can't do in KL.
Something no one I know does because we're afraid that someone will splash us with acid or get raped or get mugged.
I want to work and grow in an environment where working on weekends is unheard of. '
I want to have a winter wedding with a big bond fire.
I want my kids to have pink noses and an option about everything!
I miss my life away from KL.
I miss being away.
Thursday, 10 March 2011
giving and taking
It's lent again.
So off I went... after work, I headed to church for 8pm mass.
This time, I actually paid attention to what Father Simon had to say. I do not like that man very much but he is talking about the Word of God.
Anyways, yesterday was about giving up something and doing it in secret and also doing good and doing it in secret. You know the whole "your left hand is not suppose to know what your right hand is doing" or somewhere along those lines.
And so I was thinking...
There are a lot of people who good out there. but when no one knows. But when someone knows, instead of acknowledging the good they have done, they take advantage of it instead! So in order to make people NOT take advantage of another, someone has to acknowledge it. AND the person who acknowledges it must NOT be someone who likes taking advantage or someone. So that when another person knows and takes advantage of it, the first person can put the second person in his/her place.
Because the people who normally do good and being taken advantage of, these people let it slide. Letting it slide to the point where they end up hurting themselves. And sometimes, you don't know what to do because they don't want you to do anything about it because to them, it doesn't matter that people are taking advantage of them.
I don't see the justice of it all. I really don't.
Am I making any sense? Do you know what I mean?
Anyways, thats how I feel about it la.
Blessed Lent Season everyone....
So off I went... after work, I headed to church for 8pm mass.
This time, I actually paid attention to what Father Simon had to say. I do not like that man very much but he is talking about the Word of God.
Anyways, yesterday was about giving up something and doing it in secret and also doing good and doing it in secret. You know the whole "your left hand is not suppose to know what your right hand is doing" or somewhere along those lines.
And so I was thinking...
There are a lot of people who good out there. but when no one knows. But when someone knows, instead of acknowledging the good they have done, they take advantage of it instead! So in order to make people NOT take advantage of another, someone has to acknowledge it. AND the person who acknowledges it must NOT be someone who likes taking advantage or someone. So that when another person knows and takes advantage of it, the first person can put the second person in his/her place.
Because the people who normally do good and being taken advantage of, these people let it slide. Letting it slide to the point where they end up hurting themselves. And sometimes, you don't know what to do because they don't want you to do anything about it because to them, it doesn't matter that people are taking advantage of them.
I don't see the justice of it all. I really don't.
Am I making any sense? Do you know what I mean?
Anyways, thats how I feel about it la.
Blessed Lent Season everyone....
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
2 to 5..
Heck! I have decided to do a birthday list. I mean I'm turning 25 next week!!!
So this is what I would like...
1. Season 1 to Season 8 of Will & Grace (downloaded ones also can because its impossible to find the box sets).
2. Season 1 to Season 8 of Project Runway (downloaded ones is find).
3. An external hard disk to fit all the series in.
4. A trip to the hairdresser.
5. A reflexology session.
6. A pair of black heels.
Simple enough eh? :)
Damn. 1/4 century and I have so many places to go to! Like..
1. Vietnam
2. Laos
3. New Zealand
4. Australia
5. UK
6. Venice
7. Spain
8. Chile
9. Brazil
10. Norway
11. San Francisco
12. Hawai'i
13. Fiji
14. Peru
So... many places.. so little time.
So this is what I would like...
1. Season 1 to Season 8 of Will & Grace (downloaded ones also can because its impossible to find the box sets).
2. Season 1 to Season 8 of Project Runway (downloaded ones is find).
3. An external hard disk to fit all the series in.
4. A trip to the hairdresser.
5. A reflexology session.
6. A pair of black heels.
Simple enough eh? :)
Damn. 1/4 century and I have so many places to go to! Like..
1. Vietnam
2. Laos
3. New Zealand
4. Australia
5. UK
6. Venice
7. Spain
8. Chile
9. Brazil
10. Norway
11. San Francisco
12. Hawai'i
13. Fiji
14. Peru
So... many places.. so little time.
Wednesday, 19 January 2011
Age
Tis' the season of birthdays.
Did I mention I kinda hate growing up?
From make up and boys to credit cards and tax claims. What's next? Wedding venues and wedding dresses to diapers and breast feeding?
omg.
University life seems like ages ago for some reason. Working does suck the living day lights out of you huh?
I miss it a lot you know. The mid night chai lattes to the beach & morning after breakfast at the Farmer's Market. The studying into the night and running out of the exam hall, screaming inside because you're done for the semester (when an Asian goes screaming, there's something wrong. When a Kiwi goes screaming, they're just uni kids).
Honestly, I would do anything to live it again with the same bunch of people.
I can't wait for the big reunion in 2014!
I miss everyone. I really do.
Did I mention I kinda hate growing up?
From make up and boys to credit cards and tax claims. What's next? Wedding venues and wedding dresses to diapers and breast feeding?
omg.
University life seems like ages ago for some reason. Working does suck the living day lights out of you huh?
I miss it a lot you know. The mid night chai lattes to the beach & morning after breakfast at the Farmer's Market. The studying into the night and running out of the exam hall, screaming inside because you're done for the semester (when an Asian goes screaming, there's something wrong. When a Kiwi goes screaming, they're just uni kids).
Honestly, I would do anything to live it again with the same bunch of people.
I can't wait for the big reunion in 2014!
I miss everyone. I really do.
Monday, 18 January 2010
long time coming...
Alot has happened since my last post.
So a little recap of my three plans ya?
Item one:
1.1: Stay away from trackies and over-sized t-shirts | big t-shirt for sleeping and NO TRACKIES IN SIGHT!
1.2: sales, shoes, clothes, bags, clubbing, concerts, road trips, late night bumming in parks, coffee till 3am and mamaks at some un-Godly hour. | yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, not yet, and yes.
Item two:
2.1: Job hunting | sent out my resume to about 6-7 places and so far, nothing. been going thru job search engines and newspapers. nothing.
2.2: Money | no job = no money. however, I do get some sort of an allowance. like 100bucks a week! kinda sad that I'm turning 24 soon and I live on 100 bucks a week. I don't think I have ever felt this pathetic in a damn bloody long time. Yes.. there is some sort of frustration here and I'm trying to stay positive...
You know, staying positive is also staying in denial. The simple act of writing it down just made it worst... because it gives me this jolt of reality.
Item three:
3.1: Moving out | I have set goals. Yes. GOALS. I'm giving myself until June to move out or 3 months after I get a job. Because than, I would have some money saved up to move out in peace and no worry about money so much like a sad poor uni student.
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So thats my update of my three items. Because I am an official unemployed bum, I had a lot of time to think about stuff. I realise that I am not getting any younger. I am turning 24 in about 2 weeks. I have decided to make short term goals.
1. Move out (the obvious)
2. Get my PADI Licence.
3. Climb Mount Kinabalu.
4. TRAVEL at least 3-4 times a year. (Anywhere out of Klang Valley)
5. Save my money towards getting my own place.
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More bumming thoughts..
Here's my birthday wishlist.
1. Gillette Mach 5
Reason: It gives a better shave. I don't understand why women's razors are not like that. Haihz...
2. Gym Membership.
Reason: It rather obvious for those who knows me now.
3. A Job
Reason: Yet another obvious question. Let's just say this girl has alot of materialistic needs which needs satisfying.
4. Spa treatment or just the simple reflexology.
Reason: Because a girl needs to pamper herself la! ask Rodney, he knows best! =)
5. A new handphone and line.
Reason: My phone is falling to pieces. Been using the same phone since 2006. Yes, the horror... BUT this is only reserved for my dad! not like he know about it yet... but he will... by this weekend. =)
6. shopping vouchers
Reason: I HAVE NO WORK CLOTHES! seriously! NONE! and every girl lovessss shopping! =)
That's all I can think off...
OHHHH... and spending new year's with Jess, Elaine, Astrid and the rest of the church people was an awesome start to the new years.. and and and going for bassment jaxx with Tracy and my darling sister on the second day of new years and bumming into sherinaz and firman was AWESOME! =)
=) GTG.. amil and claire old town word board games session.
Elaine: I get you!! I feel like my brain cells are dying..
Unemployed Bum Out!
So a little recap of my three plans ya?
Item one:
1.1: Stay away from trackies and over-sized t-shirts | big t-shirt for sleeping and NO TRACKIES IN SIGHT!
1.2: sales, shoes, clothes, bags, clubbing, concerts, road trips, late night bumming in parks, coffee till 3am and mamaks at some un-Godly hour. | yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, not yet, and yes.
Item two:
2.1: Job hunting | sent out my resume to about 6-7 places and so far, nothing. been going thru job search engines and newspapers. nothing.
2.2: Money | no job = no money. however, I do get some sort of an allowance. like 100bucks a week! kinda sad that I'm turning 24 soon and I live on 100 bucks a week. I don't think I have ever felt this pathetic in a damn bloody long time. Yes.. there is some sort of frustration here and I'm trying to stay positive...
You know, staying positive is also staying in denial. The simple act of writing it down just made it worst... because it gives me this jolt of reality.
Item three:
3.1: Moving out | I have set goals. Yes. GOALS. I'm giving myself until June to move out or 3 months after I get a job. Because than, I would have some money saved up to move out in peace and no worry about money so much like a sad poor uni student.
----------
So thats my update of my three items. Because I am an official unemployed bum, I had a lot of time to think about stuff. I realise that I am not getting any younger. I am turning 24 in about 2 weeks. I have decided to make short term goals.
1. Move out (the obvious)
2. Get my PADI Licence.
3. Climb Mount Kinabalu.
4. TRAVEL at least 3-4 times a year. (Anywhere out of Klang Valley)
5. Save my money towards getting my own place.
-----------
More bumming thoughts..
Here's my birthday wishlist.
1. Gillette Mach 5
Reason: It gives a better shave. I don't understand why women's razors are not like that. Haihz...
2. Gym Membership.
Reason: It rather obvious for those who knows me now.
3. A Job
Reason: Yet another obvious question. Let's just say this girl has alot of materialistic needs which needs satisfying.
4. Spa treatment or just the simple reflexology.
Reason: Because a girl needs to pamper herself la! ask Rodney, he knows best! =)
5. A new handphone and line.
Reason: My phone is falling to pieces. Been using the same phone since 2006. Yes, the horror... BUT this is only reserved for my dad! not like he know about it yet... but he will... by this weekend. =)
6. shopping vouchers
Reason: I HAVE NO WORK CLOTHES! seriously! NONE! and every girl lovessss shopping! =)
That's all I can think off...
OHHHH... and spending new year's with Jess, Elaine, Astrid and the rest of the church people was an awesome start to the new years.. and and and going for bassment jaxx with Tracy and my darling sister on the second day of new years and bumming into sherinaz and firman was AWESOME! =)
=) GTG.. amil and claire old town word board games session.
Elaine: I get you!! I feel like my brain cells are dying..
Unemployed Bum Out!
Tuesday, 8 December 2009
french fries and garlic butter
I don't know what to expect once I head home for good. But there are three main things that I have been pondering on... it may seem rather immature but... oh well.. I'm currently a bum and I am, most of the time, moulding on Cumberland street. So...
Item no.1:
One thing that I'm looking forward to is losing weight and getting back to the old me and staying away from over sized t-shirts and trackies.
I'm excited about getting back to the much FASTER paced KL lifestyle. I think I've been stuck behind for the passed 2.5 years and I have to catch up again. Back to being the city girl and that is one thing I can't wait for, to be honest. I can't wait for sales, shoes, clothes, bags, clubbing, concerts, road trips, late night bumming in parks, coffee till 3am and mamaks at some un-Godly hour.
Item no.2:
The 'exciting' world of job hunting... the rat race... the money chasing. Whatever you call it, I'm still an underdog as I have almost next to no experience what-so-ever. At least, its my own country and I do not have to be subjected to annoying red tapes such as work permits etc.
I am freaking out but I have to start and I have to start asap. Why? Like every oil infested red blooded Malaysian.. I am ultimately broke. I do not have a generous father and I have materialistic and adventurous needs such as shoes, gym and travelling. And in order to achieve all that, I need a job to get money.
Item no.3:
I need money to move out. After staying away from home for the passed 5 years, I don't know if I can take staying at home for long periods of time. Don't get me wrong. I love my mother and sisters and (occasionally) my dramatic brother. But I don't think I can stand living in that hyper tension world without blowing up and (maybe) regretting my not so nice words. I need some sort of shelter I call my own.
I mean, there is no place for me at the moment. I have to share a room with my MOTHER. A girl at the age of 23 (turning 24 in 2 months) and living with her mother in HER ROOM is not cool... mentally and emotionally.
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Conclusion:
Do you see a common trend here? They ALL require freaking money!!!
So..
I WILL GET A JOB BY MY BIRTHDAY!!!
or I will be one miserable, over weight 24 year old in her over-sized t-shirt and trackies, sitting on her mother's sofa, watching Astro and munching on pasar malam food.
Item no.1:
One thing that I'm looking forward to is losing weight and getting back to the old me and staying away from over sized t-shirts and trackies.
I'm excited about getting back to the much FASTER paced KL lifestyle. I think I've been stuck behind for the passed 2.5 years and I have to catch up again. Back to being the city girl and that is one thing I can't wait for, to be honest. I can't wait for sales, shoes, clothes, bags, clubbing, concerts, road trips, late night bumming in parks, coffee till 3am and mamaks at some un-Godly hour.
Item no.2:
The 'exciting' world of job hunting... the rat race... the money chasing. Whatever you call it, I'm still an underdog as I have almost next to no experience what-so-ever. At least, its my own country and I do not have to be subjected to annoying red tapes such as work permits etc.
I am freaking out but I have to start and I have to start asap. Why? Like every oil infested red blooded Malaysian.. I am ultimately broke. I do not have a generous father and I have materialistic and adventurous needs such as shoes, gym and travelling. And in order to achieve all that, I need a job to get money.
Item no.3:
I need money to move out. After staying away from home for the passed 5 years, I don't know if I can take staying at home for long periods of time. Don't get me wrong. I love my mother and sisters and (occasionally) my dramatic brother. But I don't think I can stand living in that hyper tension world without blowing up and (maybe) regretting my not so nice words. I need some sort of shelter I call my own.
I mean, there is no place for me at the moment. I have to share a room with my MOTHER. A girl at the age of 23 (turning 24 in 2 months) and living with her mother in HER ROOM is not cool... mentally and emotionally.
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Conclusion:
Do you see a common trend here? They ALL require freaking money!!!
So..
I WILL GET A JOB BY MY BIRTHDAY!!!
or I will be one miserable, over weight 24 year old in her over-sized t-shirt and trackies, sitting on her mother's sofa, watching Astro and munching on pasar malam food.
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
A time for for everything.
Uni is once again over for me but this time its for real.
I just got my results, A- for my dissertation!!! and the rest are one B+ and two Bs. I am really really happy about my grades. I mean from constantly failing through out my high school life and college life to completing my uni life on a high is awesome.
Then there the decision of what to do next. Of course, the money making process is about to commence so I made a choice to move back home. Eugene and I will be leaving Dunedin for good in a couple of weeks. I guess its for the good. I can't tell if thats the best option but I guess sometimes we just have to dive in to find out.
Will write more later..
ciao for now.
I just got my results, A- for my dissertation!!! and the rest are one B+ and two Bs. I am really really happy about my grades. I mean from constantly failing through out my high school life and college life to completing my uni life on a high is awesome.
Then there the decision of what to do next. Of course, the money making process is about to commence so I made a choice to move back home. Eugene and I will be leaving Dunedin for good in a couple of weeks. I guess its for the good. I can't tell if thats the best option but I guess sometimes we just have to dive in to find out.
Will write more later..
ciao for now.
Saturday, 1 August 2009
LIfe in bullet points..
- So little time left to finish all my work. I really hope I'll be able to complete everything. But at the same time, I can't wait to get home... I think I really need it... big time. I can't wait to see mummy, claire, melvin and michelle. I can't wait to see Kevin and Layka. I can't wait to laze on mummy's couch watching star world and hbo. I can't wait for Bangsar Nasi Lemak or Nasi Lemak Bapak. I can't wait for banana leaf and cheap movie tickets. I can't wait for shoe shopping and cheap clothes. I can't wait for the wedding and all the wedding stuff to do. I can't wait to see my bride's maid dress. And hopefully, I'll get a chance to meet up with Nashreen after so many years...
- Its yet another sunny day in winter. And I'm in bed, typing out an entry after so many weeks and hoping that I'll be able to just do both my presentations today. But I might be hoping for too much. I'm really starting to freak out about my thesis presentation. Thank God I'm not the first so if I ever need to change something at the last minute, I'll still have the time.
- I want to go fishing. But from the looks of things, I won't be going fishing for a LONG time. And I didn't even get to test out my new purple fishing rod yet.
- I need to start looking for a job.... haihz. Hating the fact that my life is finally about to begin. Its scary out there... but I don't have much of a choice I suppose. Job hunt! Here I come!
Sunday, 12 July 2009
updates
1. Michael jackson died.
2. Farrah fawcett died.
3. I missed my exam because of the snow.
4. Thivya is here in Dunedin to do her degree.
5. Elaine gave us a surprise visit from Welly.
6. Vijay said I should consider my Masters if I do well this semester.
7. Queenstown trip on the 24th of July.
8. Michelle started college.
9. Harry Potter 6 coming out on the 15th.
10. I'm going to watch HP6 on the 15th.
11. I won my first poker game (after more than 50 hands) with pocket Jacks and two more Jacks on the table with the last Jack on the river card,
12. Jess, Janice and I made Kuih Bahulu.
13. Elaine, Janice, Jess and I made Assam Laksa.
14. Jess, Janice and I made Ba Chang.
15. All from scratch.
16. Went and got our (Sab and I) measurements for bride's maids dresses.
17. ROD and DYAN are legally MARRIED! Their registration was on the 1st of July.
18. Too many people getting married and having babies.
19. I need to cut my hair, its seriously getting out of shape.
20. I want.need new jeans and shorts.
21. Need to look for dress and shoes for wedding reception.
2. Farrah fawcett died.
3. I missed my exam because of the snow.
4. Thivya is here in Dunedin to do her degree.
5. Elaine gave us a surprise visit from Welly.
6. Vijay said I should consider my Masters if I do well this semester.
7. Queenstown trip on the 24th of July.
8. Michelle started college.
9. Harry Potter 6 coming out on the 15th.
10. I'm going to watch HP6 on the 15th.
11. I won my first poker game (after more than 50 hands) with pocket Jacks and two more Jacks on the table with the last Jack on the river card,
12. Jess, Janice and I made Kuih Bahulu.
13. Elaine, Janice, Jess and I made Assam Laksa.
14. Jess, Janice and I made Ba Chang.
15. All from scratch.
16. Went and got our (Sab and I) measurements for bride's maids dresses.
17. ROD and DYAN are legally MARRIED! Their registration was on the 1st of July.
18. Too many people getting married and having babies.
19. I need to cut my hair, its seriously getting out of shape.
20. I want.need new jeans and shorts.
21. Need to look for dress and shoes for wedding reception.
Wednesday, 6 May 2009
oooohhhh yeeaaaahhhhhh!
I am going to Wellington!!!
Ciao Dunedin!
See you in a few days!
Yay!!!!
party party! :P
Ciao Dunedin!
See you in a few days!
Yay!!!!
party party! :P
Saturday, 6 December 2008
Otago Radio House
It has seriously been a long while since I wrote a somewhat heart-felt post. Or rather, any post at all. Its just that alot has been going on. You know, the little stuff that seems almost insignificant to rant about in your blog. Yes, it is THAT insignificant.
Dunedin has certainly cleared out. Its around the time of year when the number of school kids roaming George Street becomes very obvious. Hardly any uni students around. And of course the night life is also almost non-existant. Unfortunately, since the petrol prices went down, boy racers are out to play. Bloody annoying!
Next week, mummy and Michelle will be in Dunedin! I can't wait! Finally, this will be the first time some sort of family member will know how life like is for me in the passed 4 years. Or at least a small taste of it.
Wednesday - Sab, Tien, Gene and I will be heading to Christchurch.
Thursday - Mummy, Auntie Gert, Uncle Chris and Dyan will be arriving at 11am!!! Then Tien will be leaving at 12pm. We'll be heading back to Dunedin on the same day. Gene and I will be getting our Regalia (hopefully we reach in time)
Friday - We're going further south to Curio Bay! To see the fossilised forest!
Saturday - GRADUATION DAY! Party party party time ya'll! Jesicka's Birthday!! Drunkity-drunk-drunk time!!!
Sunday - Going round Dunedin/Recovery Day
Monday - Queenstown
Tuesday - Wanaka
Wednesday - Back to Dunedin~
Thursday - Mummy leaving. My baby's birthday party!!!
Friday - Recovery Day!
Saturday - Moving to new house!
Sunday - I'll be flying home!!!!
I can almost taste teh o'ais limau!!!
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I just finish watching Made of Honour. I think its going to be one of the movies I can watch over and over and over again. And I think I have fallen in love with Patrick Dempsey's character. Hehehe.
I honestly can't wait to go home. So many people to catch up with and so little time. Babies popping out left, right and center! Adrian and Michelle Chong just gave birth to a baby boy, Ethan. :P
I can't help but realise things have really changed and time has certainly moved very quickly. It has been six years since confirmation. It has been 4 years since college. Its been almost two years since I moved out from Melbourne. Its not really the fact that I'm getting old, but rather how I'm no longer who I was during that time and how people just grow apart as time passes by...
There's definately people I truly miss...
Dunedin has certainly cleared out. Its around the time of year when the number of school kids roaming George Street becomes very obvious. Hardly any uni students around. And of course the night life is also almost non-existant. Unfortunately, since the petrol prices went down, boy racers are out to play. Bloody annoying!
Next week, mummy and Michelle will be in Dunedin! I can't wait! Finally, this will be the first time some sort of family member will know how life like is for me in the passed 4 years. Or at least a small taste of it.
Wednesday - Sab, Tien, Gene and I will be heading to Christchurch.
Thursday - Mummy, Auntie Gert, Uncle Chris and Dyan will be arriving at 11am!!! Then Tien will be leaving at 12pm. We'll be heading back to Dunedin on the same day. Gene and I will be getting our Regalia (hopefully we reach in time)
Friday - We're going further south to Curio Bay! To see the fossilised forest!
Saturday - GRADUATION DAY! Party party party time ya'll! Jesicka's Birthday!! Drunkity-drunk-drunk time!!!
Sunday - Going round Dunedin/Recovery Day
Monday - Queenstown
Tuesday - Wanaka
Wednesday - Back to Dunedin~
Thursday - Mummy leaving. My baby's birthday party!!!
Friday - Recovery Day!
Saturday - Moving to new house!
Sunday - I'll be flying home!!!!
I can almost taste teh o'ais limau!!!
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I just finish watching Made of Honour. I think its going to be one of the movies I can watch over and over and over again. And I think I have fallen in love with Patrick Dempsey's character. Hehehe.
I honestly can't wait to go home. So many people to catch up with and so little time. Babies popping out left, right and center! Adrian and Michelle Chong just gave birth to a baby boy, Ethan. :P
I can't help but realise things have really changed and time has certainly moved very quickly. It has been six years since confirmation. It has been 4 years since college. Its been almost two years since I moved out from Melbourne. Its not really the fact that I'm getting old, but rather how I'm no longer who I was during that time and how people just grow apart as time passes by...
There's definately people I truly miss...
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
300 sheep-shaggers.
My 300th entry.
I spoke to Tash and I gave Nash a call. I kinda miss them alot...
So, I've done camera, lighting, a lil bit of editing, script writing and set design. This time I've gone to the mother of all production roles... I, Christina Chan, am the director (finally!) for my very last practical assignment in my uni life. hehehe.. ain't it a nice way to cap off my degree? Anyways, I'm totally psych!
I've been watching shit loads of movies to the point I have seen the same relatively unknown B grade actor in two movies in the span of one week, thanks to Video Ezy One Dollar on weeklies deal. Funny, we never rent Dvds back home, and here I am, renting dvds for the passed almost four years of my life.
ANYWAYS, I have watched all four "Bring it On". And you know what? They all begin with the head cheerleader having a bad dream. Here's my lil survey on all the sequeals... on the main male characters of course..
Bring it On 1 (2000) - Yes (Jesse Bradford), in a dorkiest kinda way. That half smile is kinda hard to resist..
and plus.. he's a musician.. lol.
Bring it On Again (2004) - Nope (Richard Lee Jackson), I don't dig him at all.. maybe because he's short.. or maybe its the jaw. I don't know.. not even one my dorky cute list.
Bring it On: All or Nothing - Yes Yes Yes! (Gus Carr).. he is oh-so-cute in this B-grade-direct-to-dvd movie. Crumping and all.. yum.
How could one resist that smile... and he is a dancer. =P
Bring it On: In it to win it - Okay la.. (Michael Copon) .. like I said... okay la..
I have nothing to say about the head cheerleaders. =)
Moving on, I just finish watching Jane Austen's Book Club. Firstly, I love the soundtrack. Secondly, I like the fact that they embrace their lives as screw up as it is. And lastly,the men in the movie (husbands/boyfriends) reading Jane Austen. Honestly, I have never picked up an Jane Austen book before... and the last time I watched any movies based on a Jane Austen book was.. a time I can't even remember. Maybe I should.. start reading something of Austen's.
Oh.. I saw two gay couples at Monkey last weekend. And.. one of them (one of the couples) were full on, making out like there's no tomorrow. Oh course there were the low life sheep-shaggers making fun of them and flipping the bird and all that jazz. But Elaine and I were sooooo tempted to go up to them and say, "you guys are awesome!". I'm rooting for gay pride... even when I'm on the other end of the rainbow. =)
ps. we got the house for next year. fully furnished! and its a proper house! finally!
another p.s. I wonder how a person living thousands of miles away is still able to piss the living hell out of me.
ohh.. a new Malaysian Restaurant finally opened in Dunedin. =)
I spoke to Tash and I gave Nash a call. I kinda miss them alot...
So, I've done camera, lighting, a lil bit of editing, script writing and set design. This time I've gone to the mother of all production roles... I, Christina Chan, am the director (finally!) for my very last practical assignment in my uni life. hehehe.. ain't it a nice way to cap off my degree? Anyways, I'm totally psych!
I've been watching shit loads of movies to the point I have seen the same relatively unknown B grade actor in two movies in the span of one week, thanks to Video Ezy One Dollar on weeklies deal. Funny, we never rent Dvds back home, and here I am, renting dvds for the passed almost four years of my life.
ANYWAYS, I have watched all four "Bring it On". And you know what? They all begin with the head cheerleader having a bad dream. Here's my lil survey on all the sequeals... on the main male characters of course..
Bring it On 1 (2000) - Yes (Jesse Bradford), in a dorkiest kinda way. That half smile is kinda hard to resist..
and plus.. he's a musician.. lol.
Bring it On Again (2004) - Nope (Richard Lee Jackson), I don't dig him at all.. maybe because he's short.. or maybe its the jaw. I don't know.. not even one my dorky cute list.
Bring it On: All or Nothing - Yes Yes Yes! (Gus Carr).. he is oh-so-cute in this B-grade-direct-to-dvd movie. Crumping and all.. yum.
How could one resist that smile... and he is a dancer. =P
Bring it On: In it to win it - Okay la.. (Michael Copon) .. like I said... okay la..
I have nothing to say about the head cheerleaders. =)
Moving on, I just finish watching Jane Austen's Book Club. Firstly, I love the soundtrack. Secondly, I like the fact that they embrace their lives as screw up as it is. And lastly,the men in the movie (husbands/boyfriends) reading Jane Austen. Honestly, I have never picked up an Jane Austen book before... and the last time I watched any movies based on a Jane Austen book was.. a time I can't even remember. Maybe I should.. start reading something of Austen's.
Oh.. I saw two gay couples at Monkey last weekend. And.. one of them (one of the couples) were full on, making out like there's no tomorrow. Oh course there were the low life sheep-shaggers making fun of them and flipping the bird and all that jazz. But Elaine and I were sooooo tempted to go up to them and say, "you guys are awesome!". I'm rooting for gay pride... even when I'm on the other end of the rainbow. =)
ps. we got the house for next year. fully furnished! and its a proper house! finally!
another p.s. I wonder how a person living thousands of miles away is still able to piss the living hell out of me.
ohh.. a new Malaysian Restaurant finally opened in Dunedin. =)
Friday, 29 August 2008
Forbury Road.
Flat hunting is a bitch.
We've been going around looking for houses almost the whole day today and half of yesterday, and found nothing. You see, 2009 is going to be our last year in Dunedin and we thought that its about time we get a proper house and not some studio or some student flat. We want something nice and something that feels like home. The nice places are of course on places like Maori Hill and Roslyn or somewhere really far away like Wakari or St.Clair. And the really really nice ones are like 600 to 700 bucks a week!!! Crazy man....
I know its been only two days but the hours gene spent on trademe looking for houses for rent is ridiculous. We're giving it another couple of weeks and see how things go. Haihz...
Something Sab and Tien were talking about that got me thinking, "The closest friends we end up having are the ones from school or college. Workmates rarely become close friends". I've not started working yet so I can't say much. I mean, I do have a casual job that involves booger infested noses and crying babies... I can't imagine going for coffee with a 3 year old to talk about tampons and orgasms. I'm not sure if I can ever go back to being the same with my school friends, I mean I feel so alienated and very distant from them. Yes, I do miss them, alot, especially Nash but I don't think I would be able to go back to how things were... not where I plan to go.
Anyways, we had margaritas for tea today. =) I love the two of them.. hehehehe.
We've been going around looking for houses almost the whole day today and half of yesterday, and found nothing. You see, 2009 is going to be our last year in Dunedin and we thought that its about time we get a proper house and not some studio or some student flat. We want something nice and something that feels like home. The nice places are of course on places like Maori Hill and Roslyn or somewhere really far away like Wakari or St.Clair. And the really really nice ones are like 600 to 700 bucks a week!!! Crazy man....
I know its been only two days but the hours gene spent on trademe looking for houses for rent is ridiculous. We're giving it another couple of weeks and see how things go. Haihz...
Something Sab and Tien were talking about that got me thinking, "The closest friends we end up having are the ones from school or college. Workmates rarely become close friends". I've not started working yet so I can't say much. I mean, I do have a casual job that involves booger infested noses and crying babies... I can't imagine going for coffee with a 3 year old to talk about tampons and orgasms. I'm not sure if I can ever go back to being the same with my school friends, I mean I feel so alienated and very distant from them. Yes, I do miss them, alot, especially Nash but I don't think I would be able to go back to how things were... not where I plan to go.
Anyways, we had margaritas for tea today. =) I love the two of them.. hehehehe.
Thursday, 15 May 2008
just the girls.
I just finish watching the very last episode of the very last season of Sex and the City. What can I say? I'll always remain true to Carrie Bradshaw, Charlotte York, Miranda Hobbs and Samantha Jones. I never crossed over to the dark side... aka. Desparate Housewives. I guess they're not as fashionable in Manolo Blahniks and Prada. And there's no fabulously gay Stanford.
I abso-fucking-lutely love love love Carrie's dress in the scene where she sees Big before she leaves to Paris. That dress!!! omg! I love love love that dress!!
Okay.. that last few episodes got me thinking about my girls. I had my girls in primary school and then I moved and we grew up. Then I had my girls in high school... we had ALL the girly stuff.. I wonder where the foursome book is. There's so much shit in there... I would do anything to just flip thru those pages one more time.. Well.. we grew up.
And I moved away. Physically and mentally...
Then Melbourne came.. again, I had my girls... but now that I'm in Dunedin.. we've grow apart.. I hope its not that far apart.
And now in Dunedin... I got my girls.. I really hope.. in some alternate universe, I would have them forever... But.. we'll see... =) We might all end up in the North Island.. One might be in Rotorua, Maybe 2 in Wellington.. and One definately in Auckland. =)
But in the end of it all... one thing remains.. memories.. good and bad..
Oooo.. and one girl that has stayed thru it all... my best friend. Layka. =)
I abso-fucking-lutely love love love Carrie's dress in the scene where she sees Big before she leaves to Paris. That dress!!! omg! I love love love that dress!!
Okay.. that last few episodes got me thinking about my girls. I had my girls in primary school and then I moved and we grew up. Then I had my girls in high school... we had ALL the girly stuff.. I wonder where the foursome book is. There's so much shit in there... I would do anything to just flip thru those pages one more time.. Well.. we grew up.
And I moved away. Physically and mentally...
Then Melbourne came.. again, I had my girls... but now that I'm in Dunedin.. we've grow apart.. I hope its not that far apart.
And now in Dunedin... I got my girls.. I really hope.. in some alternate universe, I would have them forever... But.. we'll see... =) We might all end up in the North Island.. One might be in Rotorua, Maybe 2 in Wellington.. and One definately in Auckland. =)
But in the end of it all... one thing remains.. memories.. good and bad..
Oooo.. and one girl that has stayed thru it all... my best friend. Layka. =)
Wednesday, 7 May 2008
Mahligai
"Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
...........
This is to feelings I used to feel and no longer do. The only thing that remains is nostalgia. The kind that allows me to just sit down and smile and be grateful. The one thing that I try to hold on to is that happiness I felt when I was literally jumping off the stairs of Sunway College that one day. I hope that one day, we'll have another Friday night at Mahligai. =)
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
...........
This is to feelings I used to feel and no longer do. The only thing that remains is nostalgia. The kind that allows me to just sit down and smile and be grateful. The one thing that I try to hold on to is that happiness I felt when I was literally jumping off the stairs of Sunway College that one day. I hope that one day, we'll have another Friday night at Mahligai. =)
Monday, 5 May 2008
In the back seat
It hailed on/off on Friday. It didn't snow.
Things for the party is going good. Nothing has gone out of control yet. Nothing that I know of.
Gene is talking to Adrian on the phone now. I miss that fella. Lil bit of British slang every now and then. Haven't seen him in 3 years... I don't like the Northern Hemisphere. Haven't seen Nash for that long too.
Assignment going along good. Hopefully I'll be done asap. Its due on the 8th of May. Our two year anniversary together... =) That's why I want it done before that.
You know what, I don't miss KL geographically speaking. I miss the people. I miss the certain few people who I wish I can pack in my bags and bring them over here. I'm actually contemplating on migrating here for real...
I'm leaving this post with that thought...
Things for the party is going good. Nothing has gone out of control yet. Nothing that I know of.
Gene is talking to Adrian on the phone now. I miss that fella. Lil bit of British slang every now and then. Haven't seen him in 3 years... I don't like the Northern Hemisphere. Haven't seen Nash for that long too.
Assignment going along good. Hopefully I'll be done asap. Its due on the 8th of May. Our two year anniversary together... =) That's why I want it done before that.
You know what, I don't miss KL geographically speaking. I miss the people. I miss the certain few people who I wish I can pack in my bags and bring them over here. I'm actually contemplating on migrating here for real...
I'm leaving this post with that thought...
Friday, 2 May 2008
Mr.Big
"You give up your dream, you die."
Nick Hurley in Flashdance.
Nick Hurley in Flashdance.
I didn't realise how many Christian Dior Saddle bags Carrie was using in Season 3 of Sex and the City. It made me jealous.
Funny how each episode of Sex and the City still make me think about certain things. I realised that how or what I think about each episode when I was in high school has changed. A few years and a couple of relationships do change your mind. I wonder who's my Mr.Big and who's my Aidan and who's my Smith and who's my Steve.
To think with your heart or to think with your mind. That's a question not even Aristotle or Plato could answer. I remember when I first started blogging, there was this one guy who read what a 15 year old had to say about the world. I don't remember his username anymore. I would like to think that he's this older guy (maybe 10 years older) who is into drugs and philosophers. You know, the neurotic kind. In his words, he always gave me his "two cents". After awhile, he stopped reading my blog and he stop updating his. And that was the end of it.
He made the 15 year old me important and always made me feel good but never in the pink bunny way. But with cold hard truth and a lil cushion for the thud. Everytime I got his comment, I can't wait for what he has to say. I wonder what happened to him.
To my internet stranger, thank you.
Goodnight.
ps. it might snow today.
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