a sinner, a saint.

I can't..

I can't do it. I can't talk to him about it. Not yet. He's going thru this whole turmoil with his gf now. It would so damn selfish of me add more... I guess I don't mind waiting because he is worth the wait. He's the prefect gentlemen.. you know, the kind that doesn't seem to exist much these days...

And I'm privilaged to know a few. *smiles*

Went to Mornington and became the biggest bitch. I saw Ben, froze and didn't even say hi or smile. THE WHOLE DAY! I'm such a bitch.

Besides that, socially, I didnt have fun but.. the places we went to are damn nice... I was wishing he was with me the whole time... hmmm... I guess all that will have to wait. And I don't mind..

I feel so tired but I can't sleep.. why? why? why? damnnit.