the ex. the future. and the regret.

Alot has happened since the last entry...

I went to Mornington on Monday and became the biggest bitch ever.. and not in that "nice" way either. Don't really wanna talk about it because it will forever remain as one of my biggest regret...

I know you don't read this blog.. but somehow I feel so awful.. I just wanna apologise for my behaviour... Hopefully, one day I would have the guts to apologise.

Joshua came on Monday morning and I met up with him on Monday night... took him, Dave (his cousin) and Nisha (Dave's girlfriend - she's an Indian South African.. how cool is that?) to some bar on Elizabeth Street (been there a couple of times but can never seem to remember the name.. -_-'). After one drink, Dave wanted to go to Crown so badly. So, we went. Was there till like 3 something and finally left and came home. The shocking part is.. Dave actually won a few hundred bucks.. in a drunk state! -_-'

When I came home, he called me and we talked for over an hour (80 minutes to be exact).. he and his gf broke up.. which left me speechless. At first I thought he caught the flu, but boy was I wrong. I wish I was there to give him a hug or something...

Despite everything, it's just so nice to talk to him.. =)

We've been smsing each other ALOT! I think my bill will be sky rocketing like nobody's business. -_-' BUT I DO NOT MIND! hehehe. Cos he makes me smile... and laugh... and red...

Last night, I met up with Josh, Dave and Nisha again. Somehow this time around it was alot more fun.. maybe because I've warmed up with Dave and Nisha (they're nice!) and Joshua kept a constant flow of drinks for me...which is sweet. Yes, I did not even spend 1 cent the whole night... AND I came back at freaking 6 am! and had to get up for work at 2pm... and got up with a slight hangover.. hmmm... Josh is bad influence. I smoked so much yesterday.. I didn't even touch one today and I actually don't feel like a smoke...

The thing is, I kept thinking about him. CONSTANTLY! I felt so bad when he wanted to call me and talk to me but I was having so much fun with Josh and all... he waited up for me so that he could talk to me.. I feel so awful.. anyways, going to make it up to him tonight.. I'll be waiting up for him.. he's at his friend's place right now and he already called me twice.. (less than 5 minutes each call). He said he'll call later when he gets home.. (hmm.. I'M actually EXCITED!)

I can't wait till December...