Sudden death

I know that its been months but I think I'm still adjusting. I think the reason why I'm still adjusting in some ways is because there are things I can't let go. I realised that there are certains things I do unconciously, like avoiding blogs (even my own) and avoiding friendster. I don't find the urgency to go online much. I don't find the urgency to blog much. I don't find the urgency to read other people's blogs. I think I'm trying to avoid the fact that I'm no longer part of things that I'm used to be part of.

Am I making any sense? Maybe its just me. The sudden depression is not helping. And it all started out with being unable to pay for kitkats and V at the campus shop.

Maybe its the rain. Maybe its the fact that the library has become my second home. Maybe its the fact that I'm going home to chaos. Or maybe, I'm no longer "intach" with everyone I know anymore. I don't know what it is. But its almost killing my insides and there's nothing I can do about it.

At times like this, I wish the world would eat me up.

Sorry, Tracy... Sorry its only 3 days.

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