Lunatic for a sister

Good morning Dunedin!

I have only slept less than eight hours in 2 days. I'm tired as hell but I can't sleep. I can't get the things mummy have been telling me out of my mind. I don't know what to do when I get back. I don't know what to say to mummy to console her.

I don't know how things got this bad. I somewhat feel responsible for the things that have been going on. But at the same time, how would I have known that things are going to turn out the way it did? If I did, I would have definately stopped it. But it has been going on for awhile now and I don't know how to go around it.

It's definately something I have to face. and I have to also make a decision I wished I never had to make. I don't even know what my decision is at this moment in time. I hope things will be changing for the better in the next month or so...