royal vanilla.

"What is happiness to you?"
-Vanilla Sky-

What is happiness to me?

I never really thought about it as a whole. I mean, I know what makes me happy but what is happiness to me.. I don't know.

What happiness is to a person changes over time doesn't it? It changes when your circumstances and priorities in life changes.

I suppose right now, my definition of happiness is the little simple things that makes my day. The need for my coffee in the morning, a cig after a meal, being able to talk to Eugene everyday (and now being able to smell him.. ), knowing that my family and friends back home are okay and being able to cope with uni without flunking anything (just yet...).

I guess the definition for my happiness in the future is being able to have a career and family of my own. The idea of having a perfect life is just down right naive and nothing but some myth. I know that life will definately have it s ups and downs but its not going to stop me from having my little pleasures that life has to offer.

Sometimes, we have to make decisions that hurt the most because its the right thing to do. That's my msn personal message for now because everything that is happening around me seems to be around this sentence. It sucks and there's not denying its fucked up existance. I don't like being absence from the people I truly love so much when something bad happens. I'm sorry I'm not there, Dee... *hugz*

Life plays games with us, sometimes its fucked up but I guess there is some silver lining somewhere..