To be in love...

I don't think I have ever been in a relationship where I love someone so much that while talking to em' I can even start to tear just because I love em' so much and I miss em' so much. I've become to damn emo... omg!

Lover's mittens...

The thing is, its has only been less than 2 months and we haven't had any physical contact yet but I'm already feeling so much. Its starting to really scare me but.. at the same time, it feels so damn good and feels so right. Even my mother sensed it (she gets [and usually is] quite blur when it comes to my relationships and how I feel about it..).. and she sent me a freaky massage about it. Not going to say anything about that massage in here... *blush*

I hate being last in line. Especially now. I do. I hate it. So much.
[That whole line, if repeated 100 times, would still end up an understatement.]

I'm trying to hard to be patient. Those who know me well enough would know how much I'm putting into this. I feel like banging my head against the wall. To get that Not So Sensible Tina out of my head. She and her ridiculous and out of the world demands. I think she's sent to me from the devil himself. She's the little devil on my shoulder.

Patience is a virtue. *inhale*

Patience is a virtue. *exhale*

Patience is a virtue. *inhale*

Patience is a virtue. *exhale*

Here's something I found while internet surfing...

Lovers in the shower...

"When love beckons to you, follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you, yield to him,

Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you, believe in him,

Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you.

Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. ...

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,

Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,

Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love, you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."

And think not you can direct the course of love,

if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."

Khalil Gibran

Absolutely beautiful...

This picture is not meant to be some perverted gesture. I think its beautiful.. If you think other wise, I'm sorry for offending your juvenile mind.

Eugene, baby...

I'm counting down to November.. I can't wait.. When I do see you.. I don't want to let you go...

I love you so much!

*Kisses...*