Something happened almost 2 years ago. Something that would hunt me for the rest of my life. And now finally, she knows.. she finally knows... I wish I could have told her myself. I know Pei Lin does too.. but circumstances is as such that we just couldn't. I'm just really happy that she understands why we couldn't do or say anything...
The thought that the Singapore trip was somehow incomplete still lingers in my head from time to time. Certain things we did never feel complete because Stalker wasn't there... I always missed her and I still do...
We didn't get to spend much time together when I was back in KL.. and now she's gonna be flying off... I don't know when I would have the chance to see her next and that kills me. Shit.. I can't stop crying.. damnnit...!!!! She freaking gave me my favourite bikini/push up bra from Women's Secret! =*)
I miss how things used to be. But certain things were inevitable. Our education which we prioritise, the different lives we lead, the different beliefs we have.. just wasn't something that could really keep us together. Our fated path came short. That's just part of life...
The Foursome.
Stalker.
Pervert.
Psycho.
Murderer.
It was kinda when I first felt like I belong somewhere. The first time I been in a situation when all 4 girls cried over the silliest thing. The first time I was given a nickname. The first time I ever made a scrap book with other people. There's alot of first times with these girls. And a girl never forgets her 1st times..
But I grew up. We all did. Despite what has happened with Psycho.. I am thankful that these girls were once the centre of my life. I do love these girls. I still do. But sometimes love just ain't enough...
I love love love my Stalker. Oh so very much.
The stalking. The crazy singing in class and in the school corridors. The laughing out loud. The group flirting. The Ceaser Salads at Coffee Bean. The Axxess accessories. The sleepovers. The shopping. The make up session in 4Ste. The quadruple dates (KLCC and Valentine's).
And these are only a speck of what we used to do together...
All those things.. I will always cherish. Some may think I'm being all two-faced or being a hyprocrite and all.. whatever la, k? As long as I know how I feel about these girls nothing else matters...
and this may very well be the last picture of the Foursome...
16th December 2005...
"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down..."
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6 comments:
Choi what last picture? You are cursing one of the foursome to death issit?
not the death of one of the foursome la, dong-dong!
but the death of the "foursome"...
" and this may very well be the last picture of the Foursome "
well .. to make a sound of a clap it takes two hands, to eat with chopstick require 2 sticks, to make babies also need 2 people.. =D and so does friendship.
It's up to YOU and UR FRIEND to decide whether you want this friendship to work or not. If ur friend refuse to maintain, too bad then, left only memories but most importantly, YOU’VE TRIED UR BEST TO MAINTAIN IT!
When u said last picture, is like you have given up on this friendship already. It's not easy to find someone whom you can talk to. I won't just hang on to memories only you know. It's just the beginning and there will be more to come. It’s only college.
Well, i think i got alot more to say... but i think its too long for a comment.. and i lazy to buka my gmail ..hehehehe!
=)
eh? u ni sapa?
"I won't just hang on to memories only you know. It's just the beginning and there will be more to come. It’s only college."
what r you saying here?
hmm .. it means like .. ya know .. when everything its over.. is just memories ... and that's it ..
there will be more to come .. like .. work .. weddings.. babies .. and so many more..
yes of course, there is more to come.. and i'm looking forward to it. but somethings never last. That's life...
I'm not someone who comes from some disney fairytale... Life sucks.. sometimes.
But i love it anyways. =)
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