Too much, too little time.

I have this sick feeling in the pits of my tummy...

Firstly, I nearly failed one of my assignments and I have the option to re-do it. Hopefully if I do, my marks would increase. I don't know.. I have an appointment with Terri tomorrow to discuss it.

Secondly, I thought Grey's Anatomy would cheer me up. So, I watched the latest episode, Season 2 Episode 25 (17 seconds). This episode is about the 7 deadly sins and anger (so say Meredith) is the deadliest... Its yet another emotional episode and once again, I teared. Yes, I so feel like I know each and every character personally so it does affect me. Sad but true.

Thirdly, she checked me out. She checked my profile. She hates me. I know she does. I would hate me if I was her. What have I done? I don't do things like this... But I did it anyways. I did it because I love him..

Fourthly (if that word exist), I think I need to move out. I'll need to gather my guts to talk to Daddy about it. If I do move out, I need to take drastic measures... I need to think. Yesterday was the last straw. From now onwards I live for me and for me only...

Lastly, I'm feeling the stress now and its coming in massive chucks. The euphoria is there but not enough for me to think that everything is fine and dandy. Because, other than Eugene, nothing is fine and dandy.

I need a break. I need time out. Soon. Soon my time out would come.. when it does.. Tina knows nothing and she's going to live in ignorance for about a month.

I need a hug..
God please tell me what to do.. I feel lost.