A new heart...

Baby is "happy"... =)

I don't know why, I like the way he sounds when he's "happy"... I know its bad, health wise of course but, with the drinking and all, I can't help it! He sounds so bloody cute and he sounds funny/wacky.

It's funny how a few months ago, I thought that I could never give my heart away to another person. Because I thought that I had nothing else to give. Boy, was I so wrong.

I feel like I'm bursting with this surge of energy (maybe its love..) that keeps me smiling all the time! I think for approximately the passed 2 months, I have smiled more than I did in the first 6 months I was in Melbourne last year.

I melt.
I melt when I hear this voice.
I melt when his voice gets a lil more deeper, especially when he gets all serious.
I melt when he says "I love you baby".
I melt when I get his 15 second phone calls just to say "I love you".
I melt when we make plans for when we see each other at the end of the year.
I melt when he makes an effort to get to know the people I love.
I melt when he gives me thoughts. =)
I melt when I get his testimonials on friendster.
I melt.
I just melt.

It's such a good feeling to know that someone out there loves you as much as you love them. I know this sounds weird and all but... somehow, my heart feels new. Like, I just got a heart transplant or something. Because the feelings I have for him right now feels like, I've never felt this way before?

Yea, I know. I've been together with a number of guys and I may have had said that, you know, "This feeling I have is different.. and I don't think I've felt this way before". But, the thing is, I wasn't who I am today. I didn't take a breather and look at things differently. Omar didn't happen then.

Yea, Omar had alot to do with it. I remember him telling me on the basketball court that the reason why people get together is nothing but pure chemistry and that It's like science. And everything with him was so practical to the point it was almost cold. But I pushed all that and tried to make it work... because I was in love with him and I'm not going to deny that and also because I wanted to prove Adrian wrong. So I pushed harder. But the thing is, I flew solo so no matter how much I tried, I can't make someone love me back....

This time, I know for a fact that I'm not flying solo. He reminds me everyday that I'm not. Armed with the past, I know that the present and future will DEFINATELY be different. I know, I know, I know... chances are I'm in that 3 month honeymoon thing. But you see, if this 3 month honeymoon thing dies out in the next 2 months, I'm very certain and I can bet my blog (eh, my blog is very important to me k!) on it, that in November, that 3 month honeymoon would repeat itself again... and That's something I can't wait for... *pounce*

Baby keeps telling me that the wait will be worth it... I know it will. It would be nothing less than pure bliss.

The more we talk, the more I know him, the more I fall for him... just when I thought that I couldn't fall anymore, I fall even deeper..

Thank you for keeping me sane and driving me insane all at the same time *wink*...
I love you, gene...