Some said that I should take the plunge. That I should seek for my own happiness. To get it out of my system so that I can move on without thinking of what ifs. And maybe to get over the fact that I didnt see it at first. To comfort myself with the fact that I finally see it but was too late.
I was all psyche about letting my uncertain heart out. But I chickened out.
"It's just too risky," I tell myself on the way home from uni.
It involves people I care about too much.
Secretly (not too secret now...), I wish that I'm wrong. I'm wrong about his feelings and mine. I wish I never had this revelation (as Fan calls it). I wouldn't feel so fucked up.
Some said that I should let it out for his sake and mine. But what if there's was nothing there to even begin with... I would only stir up problems that never even existed in the first place.
Like most Friendster whores, I Friendster whored. I found things that has been around for long before I even notice ANYTHING.
I'm so fucking stupid!
argh! I should go kill myself now.
I've made my decision. Nothing is going to happen. Nothing is going to be said. Nothing is going to change. My time passed.
roses. toblerone. red patrick key chain. wine. long island.
Wednesday, 12 April 2006
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im clueless bout dis post!
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