the blade, reality.

Reality really kicked in when I told Josie that I've been single for 2 years now and that I'm comfortable with it. The thing is, I AM comfortable with it. Just not HAPPY about it. Am I making any sense to you?

I think it's Melbourne's LOVIN' season.

I see so many loving couples hugging, holding hands, stealing kisses and sometimes even some heavy patting! I turn green with envy.. but here's the thing, I don't know if I would be comfortable with it.. I don't even know how to even react when those VERY rear occassions when there were advances.

Now I wish there was some advances. But when I emotionally put myself back into the market, no one comes around. I wish I didn't.

The most fucked up part about all these is, I keep wondering if he loves her or not.. I mean, he seems to be, but I never had the guts to ask him. Maybe because I'm afraid of what the answer would be..

I just wanna be hugged. and I mean a REAL hug.. not just some gesture of greetings. The kind that makes you feel safe...