The one with my past

It is only normal to feel disorienated at this moment right?

I have so much to do, so little time. I procrastinated hoping that time would move slower.

Bjorn and Brian, came and went. Those boys reminded me of swimming on Saturdays, birthday parties, listening to Spice Girls, Brian giving me a scar that still remains till today, Bjorn waking me up in the morning and finishing my homework so we can go out cycling in the evening, cycling in the rain with Mummy, countless window shopping sessions at One Utama, baking with Mum, Auntie Vilma and Bjorn in the kitchen... and Brian selling sausage and cheese rolls outside his house! hahahaha...

Oh man.. I miss those times so much. I guess I should be counting my lucky stars that I had another chance to feel that after 8 years..

I have soooo much shit accumulated over 2.5 years. And to boil all of it down to 20kgs is nuts! I don't have the heart to throw away things. I can't. Too much memories. And I don't want to just throw it down the drain like that. I can't.

Things are changing yet again.

Honestly, I don't like it very much. But I guess things happen for a reason. It always does, doesn't it? There IS a reason for all these right?

I need a big hug right now.. so badly.

NO! I need to start packing.
I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine.

Oh ya.. one last thing.
STOP PLAYING HOT AND COLD WITH ME!