When you're not the first to ring the buzzer

It's Mum's and Josie's birthday today.

It's already 6.30pm here and I still haven't call them. I feel like the worst person in the world. I bet everyone else has called them already especially mummy. And here I am feeling like shit. Why not just call now? How to call when I'm feeling so awful. Mummy detects it damn fast and damn easily compared to anyone I know....

I feel like shit.

Leave me alone.