drop it like its hot.

BIG NEWS!
(to me at least)
I'm done for this year of Uni.
When I slipped my assignment in the assignment box in the Media Studies Office.. I felt like a whole load got lifted up and my poor heart is pumping miles because I'm so damn bloody excited!!!!
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

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The walls in my room are bare. I don't like it on bit. But hey, I won't be here long enough to wollow in all its ugliness.

Been trying to get down and start packing since yesterday somehow I'm stuck. At times like these, I miss Michelle soo much. She's just more organised than I am la.

Anyways, I realised that I blog alot of aimless nothingness. At the same time, I'm not saying that I want to blog about the depth of our very existance.. but something with more substance la.

*haihz... Just planned tomorrow with Pei Lin. Damn Melbourne Cup Day. Makes life for people like me who would rather shop so mah fan.*

As I was saying, subtance.

Here is something of personal 'subtance'.

I can go on and on about something in my blog but when it gets down to academic essays I freeze like the Ice Age is tomorrow. There is absolute no flow in my essay at all. I'm amazed at how some people just write with constant flow. Where's my flow? Do I even possess such talent for academic writing? From the evidence... apparently I have none.

Secondly, the last time I contemplated about life was when I was in Form3. I questioned the purpose of my existance, my roll in society and generally questions like, "Why should I live?" and "Why is my life so fucked up?". To add to the record, I'm not suicidal. But I was pretty messed up emotionally.

Right now, when I look back. I feel so damn bloody lame. Like, seriously??? Yes, there is no denying that things do get pretty fucked up most of the time but there's so much to live for. I can't believe I actually even had the idea or thought to end my life. How naive I was.

Well, I'm still naive in alot of ways but I hide it better than actually knowing something. I'm 20. I've only worked 2 part-time jobs that actually pay while some of my peers are driving their own hard earned cars. I'm so far behind that sometimes it scares the shit out of me. I mean like, what would become of me when I eventually get into the working world? But at the same time, I rather be where I am right now than having 9 to 5 jobs. (yes, I'm just butt lazy..)

Okay.. is that something of subtance. I hope so.

Promise to myself. Only make promises that I can keep. =)

Ouh. My last weekend in Melbourne was not bad.. =) and the Franklin Loft is the bomb if you're living with your bf.

And and and..
This time in 48 Hours.. I'll be on the plane on Malaysian grounds! woottt woottt!!!



A Picture of housemates gone wrong... (in my room)
Ain't Tracy sooo cute?!
Wilson being.. wilson.
Tina all pouts! lol.