Fly North

There's so many people flying off to the Northern Hemisphere this year.

And I'm stuck here.
In Melbourne.
In a way, I'm glad because Eugene is in New Zealand and I get to spend Christmas, New Years, Deepavali, Chinese New Year, my birthday, my Baby's birthday and Valentine's back in KL.

But the thing is, its rather sad that I won't get to see the people I wanna see before they fly off to continue their paper chase. The people that matters to me...

Baby will be heading back to KL and I'm stuck here. Wish I could go back.. I have so many reasons to go back but unfortunately, to my father, it's not as important as money and education.. I wonder how far can money and education take you without those people that matters most to you.

It really sucks that you know that you're missing out so much.. to me is the fact that I missed out on my brother's confirmation last year, bullying my brother about his zhng penis (??), my sisters growing up, my grandparents, being there for my mom, layka, kevin, deirdre, jason and the rest of the gang, seeing nashreen and adrian off, karma nights with the gang or just the girls and so so so much more.

Life can be so cruel sometimes no? I mean, I don't know when I'll see these people that decided to take the route to the Northern Hemisphere...

Here's something Edwan (one of the only people I talk to since I left 4Ste...) wrote and sent to me yesterday... I suppose you can call it my dedication to the people I miss and love, who'll be spreading their wings and heading north...

Here on earth,
I walk my roads alone,
With a dream in my mind,
And a voice in my heart,
That keeps me alive,
Here on this earth.

But when night falls,
And I look into the sky,
There is a part of me that believes,
That one day…

I’d walk the Crossroads of The Moon and The Sun,
And I’d sail the great Star Ocean,
With everything I hold and have in my heart,
Till the end of time.

I miss my baby so much so, it ain't funny anymore.

But I know that patience is a virtue and

soon enough I'll get more than

I've bargain for...

I love you so much Eugene Goh Yew Chye...

I love love love the flowers.

Thank You Baby....

*hugs and kisses*